Been awhile again

It seems that ever since people came back for school I havent found the time or had the desire to get on here and update this as much as I both want and say I will. I guess I sorta promised a few entries that I never mentioned, but I seriously doubt anybody that reads this cares, other than the minute possibility that reading about something they were involved in would add some interest to their day. I dont even know where to begin at this point. I thought about writing about Michigan losing to Notre Dame at one point, but there's a lot to say, and I dont honestly feel like saying much about it. I guess I can blame Lloyd and the conservative calls, or I can blame our wideout trio for their costly turnovers, or I could simply say that there really isnt anybody to blame, because we start a freshman quarterback and he's good, but not what we need (blame Gutierrez and his shoulder then?). Now that I'm graduated I realize more than ever that football is only a game, and quite frankly I'm not a member of the team, so I shouldn't get all heart broken.

Well, since I said I'd write about them, in retrospect I guess I can try and recap some recent events super super quickly. A few weekends ago my apartment had a little house warming event - I got super drunk, we played Sceneit, and I wrestled Cara an excessive amount - so much that I left us both bruised and rug burned (sorry again). The next weekend Christy, Cara, and some of Cara's EMU friends went out to Tonic once again for a VIP party, and I was elected the DD for the excursion. I must say, it was one of the more fun mostly sober nights I've spent around drunk people lately, so thank you to everyone involved (special shout out to the test tube shot girl, the job really does suck). The following weekend the only event that really sticks out too much is hanging out with Julie, Keri, and my boss Sean at Cavern Club of all places. My boss got really drunk (this isnt unusual to anyone familiar with the situation) and pretty much molested Keri. An inside joke I guess for any Dollar Bill readers out there - in memory of Katie I attempted my favorite dance move with Keri - the bridge - and I have obviously lost my bridging abaility because I fell right on my ass.

The past couple weeks have left me feeling strange at times, but ultimately happier than I was before people came back to town. Constantly being around an influx of girls has sorta left me feeling a little more desire than usual, but I think I've weathered the storm quite well thus far. Other than that, it's interesting to me that I have basically encountered two attitudes towards me in relation to my current situation. A typical response is why dont you go get a real job, I cant understand why you arent using your degree, etc etc. Then, unexpectedly, I began meeting some people that made me feel as justified as I often am in my mind.

The reality of the situation is that I finished my last class about 10 weeks ago, and shit, I havent even gotten my fuckin diploma yet. I'm 22 years old, dont owe any money, and will easily make enough to pay my rent and put food on the table with my current lifestyle doind whatever it is that I'm currently doing. If I can't enjoy myself right now, then when will I? Believe me, I'm hardly going to go through life living pay check to pay check because I'm too lazy to send out a resume. I just dont feel like it right now. Some people question why I dont do it for the money. I'll tell you why - money isnt that important! Money is ironic to me, because many people spend all the things that are limited - their time, energy, and basically lives - trying to accumulate the one thing that can be earned again and again and again. I will never be able to buy back the 23rd year of my life. The chance that I will remember it - and dammit, remember it as being a great year - will stick with me longer than my paycheck ever will. Right now, I choose to live.

Speaking of which, let me give another shout out (I already wrote the names Julie and Keri in here, happy now?) to a new friend. About 2 weeks ago I first got to know a young lady named Natalie, and it has been quite the interesting trip ever since. Natalie and I became friends based on a mutual love of life and adventure, and I'm interested to see where she takes this attitude. Anyway, Natalie's surprised me on a few occasions already as she has led me to understand a little more about myself, so for that, I appreciate the challenges she's set out. To condradict my statements about being young at 22 earlier, I feel old at times, but have ultimately realized that there is no time like now to keep improving as a human being.

Well, I guess tonight's blog actually got a little more in depth on who I am to some extent. Really though, and I feel that everybody thinks this, I couldn't ever imagine somebody else understanding the depths that encompass me. For some reason I've never even been able to admit some of the most basic things about myself, even to people I've known for years. Some just figure it ot on their own, others never really get the chance, and still others are unable to believe the reality. In closing, for anyone who is concerned, my time of career sloth will be brief, believe me, but it will hopefully also be full.